Which Road?

So today I sit in bed, nursing a sick toddler back to health, all the while wondering why I work. I would love to be a stay at home mom, and just take care of my house, hubby, and child. Right now I work a job that I don't mind at all and bring home money that greatly benefits the house. However, moments holding my little baby's head as she whines herself to sleep remind me that one day she'll be a grown woman, who doesn't need me to rock her to sleep anymore. Is it worth it? Is working 40 hours a week, and only getting to see her 3.5 hours a day M-F really worth it?

I tried to decide if in life if we choose to work out of necessity, personal success status, or happiness. For me, it is clear that I am not working out of happiness, but need. I wish there was a way I could work from home or have a job that allows me to be home more than I am at work. I've chased degrees, careers, and money for years, and here I sit realizing that none of that really matters. What matters is the legacy I leave. The time I spend with those that mean the most to me. In that moment instead of thinking of all the time I could spend with my family, and all the things we could do. I obsessed about what type of business I could operate at home.

So as my mind races to find a comfortable road it's use to, my heart wonders if I should finally live life for passion or continue the 'rat race'.