Nothing is Impossible...

Since I was a young girl my Grandmother has told me that nothing is impossible through he who has created us. When she passed I made that my motto. Along with Walt Disney's "If you can dream it, You can do it!" LOVE THAT! Recently, I have been feeling very defeated at work, in life, and in spirit. I wanted to just give up. As I was surfing the net one day (quite possibly Facebook, my new pastime.) I saw a quote that said "To those that say nothing is impossible, tell them to bounce a football." I laughed and cried when I read that. The foundation upon which I rested my world was now crumbling beneath my feet. I began for the next three days saying to myself they are right, you can't bounce a football. Some things are just not possible. I should really just throw in the towel. Give up all hopes and dreams. Who am I anyway? Change my diaper mommy, Where's dinner wife, do this, do that! Where has the edge disappeared to? I was suppose to be living on it and think I left a few miles back when I boarded the train to Motherhood. I mean seriously there is nothing like a few rain clouds to soak you through to your knickers in a self pity, and BOY was I soaked!

One very long week later I was watching the television as the baby napped and I happen to catch a commercial (who knows what it was about, it was a man geared commercial) where a very strong man was standing in a football field, next to a basket of balls. YOU WOULD NOT BELIEVE WHAT HE DID NEXT! He picked up a football and bounced it! YES!! HE BOUNCED IT! The announcer came on and began talking about who knows, and I stood up from the couch screamed and jumped up and down waving my arms, then proceeded to shout ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE!! YAY!!! I am so very glad I was alone at that moment. I don't think an audience would have appreciated my tiny revelation.

But, Thanks to those very annoying and time consuming commercials I am now rejuvenated and ready to take the world by storm again. Anything and everything I want to do is possible! There is nothing to stand in my way! I am capable because, my created made me capable! How awesome is that! Now, just to figure out what I'm going to do.

Does anyone know if taking over the world is an option?

What do you want to be when you grow up?

Is it me, or does that question seem to follow us to our death bed? Here I am 28 years old, I'm going to be 29 this year and I still have no idea what I want to be when I grow up. Oh I have my ideas, my dreams, my fairy tales, and then... well then there is reality. I have been in school for what seems like a lifetime. Once I finish one level of education, I'm told I need to move on to the next to ever amount to anything. I'm starting to wonder if I'll die an overly educated woman with 15 cats because at 35 she gave up on trying to decide what she wanted to be when she grew up, and settled for cat lady. Some days I sit and drink a nice toasty beverage on my back porch, and imagine that I'm in a cafe in France, watching cultured people walk by in an array of overly priced fabrics. The smell of warm croissants fill my nose and all around me the sound of beautiful 'Oui Oui's' romances the air. Ahh... This is the life. Suddenly a beautiful stranger sits in front of me, his hair is being gently tousled by the cool breeze, his skin perfect, his smile radiant.  In a thick and luscious accent he says, "So tell me Mon Ami, What do you want to be when you grow up?" POOF! In a cloud of abrupt smoke I'm sent spiraling right back to my porch staring at a luke warm cup of 'toasty' drink.

REALLY?!?! REALLY?!?! The question haunts my dreams too!! Argh! So when do we know what we want to do with our lives? Is it after we spent thousands of dollars on education that we realize okay I need to just do whatever to pay back my loans? Do we wait to get a sign in a dream? Or hear a voice from God?

Do we choose a career for money or love? What about comfort level? Or being easily accessible? When do we stop chasing ideas and settle into a cozy grown up job?

Or maybe a better question is when are we considered grown up? Because technically I may have a few years left to figure all this out!

:)